Im scared and alone and dont know what to do?

im so alone and everyday i get more and more alone i spend my time cornerned between the 4 walls of my room in the past i did some thing s that made people really hate me these things include rumors and pacts i made with people to destroy people i really could not stand now all of this has caught up to me and now trust me i am paying for what i have done theres is not a day that i dont think of my loneliness as a punishment for what i did im afraid to go out now i have a persecution complex i feel that everywhere i go people hate me and talk about me i know i did wrong but now i dont know what to do this is hell to me and i am paying for what i did but i swear i cant take it anymore this is not a way to live